A New Chapter For A New Beginning

hate it

2012-01-20T08:28:00.001+08:00

I hate it when I'm started to cough continuously when comes to wkends!! Arghhh!!!

the day has come

2012-01-19T09:57:00.001+08:00

The day that I will walk away from you is the day when I have completely forgotten bout us being together. And yes, I have totally forgotten about you and the feeling that we used to have for each other. And just now is the day that I've been waiting for....sayonara!!!

ignore you

2012-01-16T09:32:00.001+08:00

I choose to ignore your calls and smses simply becoz I can't be bother with ya anymore. So now...out ya go frm my life (;

best thing I never had

2011-12-17T18:55:00.001+08:00

You turned out to be the best thing I never had (;

I don't

2011-12-09T22:21:00.001+08:00

I don't love you like I did yesterday...

headache

2011-12-07T10:17:00.001+08:00

*broken english mode*
When comes to pay day already surely I got headache. Need to settle alot of stuff lei. Money always go out but money go in very little. Aiyah!!

On a random note, someone is proposing to me. Lagi headache! Die liao! I cannot commit one la. With the way I work cannot make it one la. *shake head*

Planning for a short getaway to Phuket with me ar? That one more dangerous!! *slap forehead*

Best friend, sorry hor u kena scolding. Work is work personal is personal mah. Heh!

hello Singapore

2011-11-27T01:53:00.001+08:00

Hello Singapore, I'm back!! Home sweet home (;

Jakarta

2011-11-23T18:34:00.001+08:00

Goodbye Singapore. Hello Jakarta =)

My Boy

2011-11-18T17:06:00.001+08:00

Then

1. Ex Boyfriend

2. Ex Fiancé

Now

1. Best Friend

2. Co- forwarder

3. Advisor ( personal & work )

Chris

2011-11-18T01:16:00.001+08:00

The one that has been always making me smile. Chris =)

moment of fool!

2011-11-17T06:02:00.001+08:00

1. Plainly a moment of fool!! Heh!!

2. Doc said 'no drinking for the time being ok?' hehehe...

3. Touching the stomach to feel the heartbeat of a new life..

4. Are you prepare to be a single parent to the unborn child??

5. Live life as it is.

6. I am no one to be own. My life I rule.

7. Moving on.

8. Hate me curse me, I don't give a damn to what you think of me.

9. I'm not one of your pit stop destination.

10. For that, I thank you.

*Toodle*

no married man!

2011-11-13T08:34:00.001+08:00

Oh please!! Not another married man!!!!!

Victoria Bar

2011-11-12T19:31:00.001+08:00

Hitting Victoria bar for a chill out session!! It's time to unwind with fellow friends! *grin*

why bother??

2011-11-12T10:52:00.001+08:00

Why bother after I have move on??!!! Go fuck far far ok!!!

breakfast

2011-11-11T08:18:00.001+08:00

Early morning meeting yet brain still in sleeping mode! Grrrrr!!!

Dear Mr Christino, thank you for the big Mac breakfast and sing a pinoy song early morning for me!! *burp* see ya soon for dinner. Hehe...

laying history at rest

2011-11-09T10:28:00.001+08:00

Morning wakey-wakey! Someone out there has been occupying my time lately. And I must say I'm starting to love it! And it's time to let the history lay at rest.. *wink*

supper date

2011-11-03T11:22:00.001+08:00

The new senior manager invited me for dinner yesterday. But I told him there's lot of paper works need to be done and I might be going back home late. But he insisted to wait for me to settle everything. Finally done with everything at 10.30pm! Phew!! No dinner but supper date with him. Ok get back to work now!!

P/s: sleepy and miss my bantal busyuk!!

dnt fall for me

2011-11-01T11:17:00.001+08:00

Dear Mr Manager, don't fall for me any further. Like I said before, I'm hard to be please. Our world are simply far apart. Period.

locking my past

2011-10-31T04:19:00.001+08:00

Everyday I try to lock my past; the memories that we used to share. But up to now, I failed to do so. Every single night I cried thinking of you....

sorry hor!!

2011-10-27T17:12:00.001+08:00

There's a saying once bitten twice shy. I wish I could, but I'm sorry dear, I really can't take the risk and let my heart rule my mind again...

pizza hut man

2011-10-26T10:42:00.001+08:00

The pizza hut manager wrote his mobile number on a small piece of paper and passed it to me personally yesterday. And said, 'kalau sudi call me' to me.
I'm stunned when a good n young looking gentleman approached me while I'm least expected.

TLC

2011-10-23T19:15:00.001+08:00

Shower me with TLC and I'll return tht favour too. Not forgetting buying gifts for you every now and then, just to show my appreciation towards you. He..he.. *eyes rolling*

whisky!!

2011-10-21T21:15:00.001+08:00

Left my whisky in the office!! Half bottle left!!
>.<

go for it.

2011-10-20T08:32:00.001+08:00

Colleagues said go for that Philippines guy. He's single and well educated plus Pinoys are easy to handle! LOLX!! Crazy!!

On a random note, I'm kinda worried bout 'him' since what he said to me yesterday. Oh goodness, why am I reacting like this??!! Does it concern me?? *slap forehead*!!!

heartbreaks

2011-10-18T06:03:00.001+08:00

Heartbreaks are stepping stones to get to the other side where one's true love awaits...

when will I see you again?

2011-10-17T05:07:00.001+08:00

When will I see you again? When will we share precious moments? Will I have to wait forever, or will I have to suffer and cry the whole night through? When will our hearts beat together? Are we in love or just friends? Is this my beginning or is this the end?...

Post Created Oct 15, 2011 1:10:53 AM

2011-10-15T01:10:00.001+08:00

When I first met you, I thought that you was the most perfect man I ever seen. But I'm feeling unappreciated for the past 7 weeks boy. What am I suppose to do when my heart says leave but my feet just won't move? How long more you wanna torture my feeling? I'm human, and I've feelings too just like the rest.

Oh well, I'm tired of crying. But this tears just won't stop flowing. God, I beg you for mercy. Help me to overcome this ordeal. ;'(

Let this cry put me to sleep right now. I need to attend stupid golf session with boss at TMCC tomorrow morning. Sian!!

over with it

2011-10-14T20:58:00.001+08:00

I'm done and over with you Nur Effendy Amit!! Sorry for everything. The good and the bad...

always on my mind...

2011-10-12T22:30:00.001+08:00

You'll always on my mind ;'(

regret!!

2011-10-12T00:53:00.001+08:00

Am feeling the pain and regretful right now. If only I did not allowed my heart to rule my mind, things won't turn out this way.....

the fear

2011-10-08T09:41:00.001+08:00

The fear about losing a loved one is the fear of change itself. Being used to one person, day after day, then to one day wake up all alone, a whole new day. Think of it as a chance to start over; to learn and not repeating from the past and make a brand new beginning...

already gone

2011-10-07T21:52:00.001+08:00

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

like a jerk!

2011-10-06T05:40:00.001+08:00

Look here boy, I'm trying to work things out between the both of us, but you simply acted like a jerk!!!

torn in between

2011-10-05T06:41:00.001+08:00

I'm torn between a longing for calm and intimacy and a crazy desire to go out, see the world and have some fun!! Nevertheless no matter what my schedule is, there'll be some moments of joy and closeness that will make me believe that perfect love exists... ;)

afraid of losing you

2011-09-29T00:19:00.001+08:00

If you love me let me know. If not, please gently let me go. I just don't know why am I so afraid to lose you, when you are not even mine...

turning table!!

2011-09-28T14:10:00.001+08:00

Close enough to start a war. All that I have is on the floor. God only knows what we're fighting for. All that I say, you always say more.

I can't keep up with your turning tables. Under your thumb, I can't breathe...

I don't...

2011-09-27T07:02:00.001+08:00

I don't regret my past, I only regret it for the wrong people i spent with....

where is the love...

2011-09-24T00:27:00.001+08:00

Where is the love baby...? Crying like a lil child right now, cuddling myself to bed longing for the TLC from you... ;'(

all bout cancerian woman

2011-09-23T00:14:00.001+08:00

Here's all about cancerian's woman..

A cancerian woman has mood swings every now and then and these are only a few of her mood swings. However, her basic personality traits remain the same. She is very sensitive, emotional, kind and caring. Now's the catch! Most of her traits will be hidden behind a shell of indifference and aloofness, breaking which will require quite a lot of effort.

You will have to gently coerce a Cancerian girl to get out of her shell and come into the big bad world without it. The best time to do this is in the moonlight, when there are maximum changes of catching her in her true emotions. When in love, she will be tender, womanly, timid and modest. She dislikes criticisms, can't stand rejection and gets deeply hurt by harsh words. Too much aggressiveness on your part may make her a little hesitant. She loves her mother, so you better learn to love as well as respect her too.

A Cancer woman will never make the first moves in a relationship; she only knows how to move backwards or sideways. This is because of two reasons, her shyness and her fear of being rejected. This female has some secrets and she won't like you prying around her personal diary. She is very insecure and will need your constant reassurance. It doesn't matter if she is the current 'Miss Universe' or has men drooling over her all the time, it is your attention and appreciation she would be the most concerned about.

You will have to learn to live with a Cancerian woman’s mood swings, which is not so difficult since she is so good in every other way. She is extremely loyal and will keep you happy with her warm and rich humor. Once she is committed to you, she will remain yours forever and ever. Adultery is not one of her traits. With a Cancerian woman, you will always have to be careful with words. She is very sentimental and can get hurt very easily. Then, she can cry like a 2-year old baby and you will be expected to console her and wipe her tears.

A Cancer female is a great cook and makes better food than a 5-star hotel chef. She is quite careful with money as well. Neither will she be stingy, nor totally extravagant. She has a habit of saving everything that is usable, be it money, old buttons or empty jars. She also saves things that have a sentimental value attached to them, like the sweater grandmother knitted on her fifth birthday. A Cancer female fiercely guards what is hers and that includes you too! However, she is not too possessive or jealous. But, she does not like sharing her love too.

She is one of those people who do not crib about bad luck. She will get depressed and may shed a few tears alone, but she will be patient and wait for the time to change again, this time in her favor. Almost all the Cancerians have the desire of being pampered like a child, especially when they feel low. Don't forget to pay your Cancer girl extra attention when she is depressed, otherwise she may retreat deeper into her shell. And then, it will be very difficult to bring her back to her normal self.

She will want to be told time and again that she is still desirable and you still need her. However, she is not weak and is completely capable of looking after herself. In fact, she is one of those who sacrifice all that they have, for their loved ones. She just needs some spoiling after every few days. A Cancerian woman may be fragile as far as her feelings are concerned, but when you need her, she will be as strong as the 'Rock of Gibraltar'. She will also be very protective of her children and make them feel completely secure.

Kids will be the center of her universe and she will pamper them with her love, affection and care. The children will also be very close to her and no matter how much far they go from home, they will come back to her and she will know this. A Cancer female always needs you, but she will never get too aggressive. She knows that you may leave for a while, to follow your dreams, but in the end, she is the one you will come back to. Then, you will find her as charming as before, waiting for you with freshly baked bread and hot soup. She will feed you, listen to your worries and make you smile again! Need anything more?

back pain

2011-09-21T15:33:00.001+08:00

I'm having a terrible back pain right now!! ;'(

brainless idiots!

2011-09-21T01:05:00.001+08:00

It's really hard to say out things with family members, especially when comes to those who are plainly brainless idiots!! Thanks to Baby Boo and uncle Izad who always been supportive and never fail to advice me when I'm down facing this stupid shit.

believe in yourself

2011-09-15T18:43:00.001+08:00

When you really want something, sometimes you have to swim a little deeper...you can't give up just because things don't come easy...you have to overcome the obstacles and face your fears...

But in the end, it's all worth while! Life is full of ups and downs, but if you believe in yourself, you will always come through with flying colours...value friendship, love and faith...

Never underestimate yourself, believe in yourself...

where do I stand in your life

2011-09-09T01:05:00.001+08:00

Things has been bad lately between the both of us. Nothing seems to be right. You keep on making me wonder where do I stand in your life. ;'(

end of the road?

2011-09-05T02:16:00.001+08:00

Is this how things suppose to be even when I had said I'm truly sorry to u? Leaving me all alone right here crying?? Is this the end of the road for us??

gave in to you..

2011-09-04T18:41:00.001+08:00

Even when I myself know that I did not commit any mistake and my conscience is clear, still, I gave in and said sorry to u...what else u expect me to do?? ;'(

lose control

2011-09-04T02:36:00.001+08:00

Music makes me lose control?? Hell no for this time round!!

what and who?

2011-09-03T01:18:00.001+08:00

WHAT AND WHO AM I TO YOU?? DAMMIT!!!

deadline

2011-08-23T00:53:00.001+08:00

There's no deadline when comes to love...

for once

2011-08-18T17:39:00.001+08:00

For once in my life, can I trust you with my heart??

if I..

2011-08-11T18:59:00.001+08:00

If I could, I would.. Just to fly with you wherever you go.

take it as it is

2011-08-01T23:41:00.001+08:00

Don't worry about what's coming your way even if it feels like too much, you definitely deserve the best that life has to offer. Roll with it and have as much fun as you can!!

missing you..

2011-07-31T00:51:00.001+08:00

All I need is u right now. Am missing you so much!! :'(

tears

2011-07-30T01:46:00.001+08:00

Tears are words the heart can't express.

2011-07-26T01:26:00.002+08:00

I miss my baby boo so so badly. All I want is him right now at this very moment; to hug and kiss him!! Baby...I'm missing you and at the same time worried about you.... :'(

2011-07-25T02:45:00.000+08:00

Do not brood over your past mistakes and failures as this will only fill your mind with grief, regret and depression. Just don't repeat them in the future...

2011-07-23T16:02:00.003+08:00

I have to make a choice in my life. I need to choose between the both of them. In either case, I have to brace myself as it's not going to be easy. In fact it's going to be particularly hard, because my happiness is at stake. However hard it maybe, I will do it and won't let the dilemma paralyze me and won't leave the decision to others. Things happen for reason(s). Well, maybe there's blessing behind it. And I don't wish to blame anyone for this. As for now, I'll just live my life as it is...

Post Created Jul 20, 2011 7:42:14 PM

2011-07-20T19:42:00.001+08:00

So busy and tired today but I'm happy and satisfied =)

contented!

2011-07-20T04:08:00.001+08:00

I'm contented to meet ya even for a short while and I mean it =)

2011-07-19T02:58:00.002+08:00

Whenever I think of you, I felt so weak. Lately, I'm missing ya so so much. I don't wanna cry no more thinking that you're far from me. I miss your kisses and hug baby.. Let's this cry put me to sleep for now....

I believe

2011-07-18T10:35:00.002+08:00

I believe love is the answer

2011-07-18T03:39:00.002+08:00

"Some people are meant to fall in love with each other;

but not meant to be together".

!!!

2011-07-17T20:26:00.001+08:00

Kenapa la benggap sangat ni??!

happy hour

2011-07-17T02:04:00.001+08:00

Great time!! Happy hour!!

pissed

2011-07-15T10:57:00.001+08:00

PISSED OFF!! BLOODY HELL!!!

sleepy head

2011-07-14T12:03:00.001+08:00

I'm so so sleepy!!

??

2011-07-12T16:05:00.000+08:00

Don't talk to me as if I'm Stupid! I may be dumb but I'm NOT stupid!

WHAT THE HECK??!!

2011-07-11T00:36:00.001+08:00

NO ARGUMENT PLEASE!!

I HATE IT!!

2011-07-07T21:32:00.000+08:00

I miss wearing my red nail polish!!!

Arghhhh!!!

2011-07-06T01:11:00.001+08:00

Love comes like storm clouds.

Fleeing from the wind, and casts

shadows on the moon..

2011-07-05T01:24:00.000+08:00

As much you hate surprises, so do I. If only you were able to think wisely, you wouldn't have done all that to me. You should have known way better how's my state during that time right? Can't you simply inform me the next following day or msg me of what actually happened??!! I know u did apologizes many times, but it's still hurt till now. Why showed me after 2 days after the incident?? I'm so so saddened with whatever shit that had happened. I may be what you think of, but there's certain things that 's you still need to be very careful. My pride and dignity dear!!

I just feel wanna fuck you upside down and slap you! But dear, I'm not capable of doing all that to ya. I'm hard in the outside, soft in the inside. I'm FRAGILE! Please handle with care. Do show & prove to me that you care and love me. Action is louder than words. Respect me just like the way you respected other woman too.

People say never trust a person wholly when you barely know him/her. But what I did was I believed and trusted you that you will take good care of me whenever I'm with ya hunny!! It will take times for me to forget whatever shit that had happened hunny. I do forgive but neva forget. I'm tired of the crying hunny...For now, let's just move on and hopefully you can gain back my trust in you.

I need a man who see through my illusions, who love me from within and that will never give up on me...

2011-07-03T01:19:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday to you Zana! Now you're 3 years away from hitting the age 30!! Old already! My goodness! And mum kept on asking when I wanna settle down. Huh? settle down? Please, not so soon mummy..

It's my birthday & I miss my baby boo right now! Am crying right now. :'(

2011-06-30T01:21:00.004+08:00

Baby, I know that I love ya. I appreciate your TLC all this while. I'm missing ya every now and then. Misses the kisses and the gentle touch of yours that touches my body and lip. Baby, I can't seems to get enough of you dear.

2011-06-28T01:24:00.004+08:00

I see it all perfectly; there are two possible situations - one can either do this or that. My honest opinion and my friendly advice is this: do it or do not do it - you will regret both.

*Kan ku jadikan kau kenangan yang terindah dalam hidupku*

:'(

2011-06-27T01:34:00.003+08:00

1st it's my emotion that you played with. Now what?! Fuck me?! Fuck you back!!! Can still feel the pain that you grabbed me on my right arm and my bloody face!! Cursed me, I curse you back! Look, you have gone way too much boy! My patience has a limit to it!! Eyes still swollen from the crying. Better be good for tomorrow...

Terrible + Ugly Sunday :|

Acceptance

2011-06-25T19:01:00.001+08:00

Acceptance is not a submission; it is acknowledgement of the facts of a situation. Then deciding what you're going to do about it.

Some people confuse acceptance with apathy, but there's all the difference in the world. Apathy fails to distinguish between what can and what cannot be helped; acceptance makes that distinction. Apathy paralyzes the will-to-action; acceptance frees it by relieving it of impossible burdens...

Loving It

2011-06-25T04:34:00.000+08:00

I love you smile at me, I love the way your hands reach out and hold me near....I believe this is heaven to no one else but me. =)

2011-06-24T03:01:00.003+08:00

Say it only if you mean it for real

2011-06-22T18:12:00.002+08:00

WHAT THE FUCK!! BLOODY IDIOT!!

2011-06-14T20:55:00.000+08:00

Seriously I don't feel good about things that happening right now!!

Idiot!!

Fuck you!!!

2011-05-10T13:34:00.001+08:00

I have gave you all enough grace time to find another place to look for. And there's a lot of place you can refer to for help! Ask the PAY AND PAY community to help ya all!!! MCYS is there for yu too! So don't tell me that you are not happy with the decision that I have made. Don't tell me that I'm selfish and heartless coz I NEED to take care of my family interest!! Ty.

2011-05-10T06:57:00.000+08:00

Cuaca panas!! Kepala pon sakit!!!

2011-05-02T20:25:00.001+08:00

Sekurang-kurangnya saya tak sombong! Nampak bekas tunang dengan mak dan bakal nya, saya hulurkan salaman dan ukirkan senyuman. Beri salam lagi. Beradab tu nama nya *wink*

2011-04-29T12:05:00.000+08:00

Janji melayu tak pasal...Lambat tetap kotakan....Jangan janji keling sudah!! Aku paling menyampah kalau orang suke dolak dalih!! BINGGIT!!!!! FCUK!!!

2011-04-17T22:37:00.001+08:00

Whenever you're in conflict with someone, there is one factor that can make the difference between damaging your relationship and deepening it. That factor is ATTITUDE.

2011-04-02T01:30:00.000+08:00

I have no regrets. I wouldn't have lived my life the way I did if I was going to worry about what people were going to say. PERIOD!

Blessed Blessed Blessed

2009-07-21T00:07:00.000+08:00

It's been quite sometime I've been haitus from blogging. Syukur Alhamdulillah, everything is going well and good. So do my relationship with Ucuk and his siblings. I thank Allah for granting my long prayers. I'm truly blessed to be by his side again. *wink*

Reality of life

2009-05-20T22:58:00.001+08:00

Sometimes in our relentless effort to find the person we love, we fail to recognize and appreciate the people who love us. We miss out on so many beautiful things and simply because we allow ourselves to be enslaved by our own selfish concerns.

Go for the man of deeds and not for the man of words, for you will find rewarding happiness not with the man you love, but the man who loves you more. The best lovers are those capable of loving from a distance far enough to allow the person to grow but never too far to feel the love within your being.

To let go of someone doesn't mean you have to stop loving, it only means that you allow that person to find his happiness without expecting him to come back. Letting go is not just setting the other person free, but is also setting yourself free from all the bitterness, hatred and anger that keep in your heart.

Do not let the bitterness rare you away your strength and weaken your faith, and never allow pain to dishearten you, but rather let yourself grow with wisdom in bearing it. You may find peace in loving someone from a distance not expecting something in return.

But be careful, for this can sustain life but can never give enough room for us to grow. We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past, but real peace and happiness come only with open acceptance of what reality is today.

There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice and beautiful and we find ourselves so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon become a part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions. The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than just a friendship. We start our desperate attempt to get notices and be closer, but in the end our effort are still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves.

You don't have to forget someone you love. What you need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for yourself. Believe me, you would be better off giving that dedication and love to someone more deserving. Don't let your heart run your life, be sensible and let your mind speak for itself.

Listen not only to your feelings but to reasons as well. Always remember that if you lose someone oneday, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow. If you lose love that doesn't mean you failed in love. Cry if you have to, but make it sure that tears wash away the hurt and the bitterness that the past has left with you. Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you. And when it does, pray that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime.

There are two ways to love you life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is though everything is a miracle. So decide your life...

Feeling Good!

2009-05-18T00:08:00.001+08:00

I'm Happy with the life that Im living now. Truly happy and blissed! Past few years, my life was like ewwww...no words can ever describe how life was that point of time. Now everything changed! The one that I'm wishing to be with, has finally came back to me and I swear I will hold on tight to him. Never letting him go again!! Hehehe...Feeling eh aku ni..

Well, between me and that mulot jubo ayam tu dh selesai pon..Balak dh abis dok!! I don't even hold any grudges on him and his family. Including that bitch who claimed that I can't move on with my life without him. She even claimed tht I can't accept the fact that both of us are no more! Duh!!! Well, u damn moron, here I am living well without his love anymore. And I thank God coz my misery has ended! Good luck to you then hor!!Hehehe..

SO LONG SUCKER!!!

ENDED!!

2009-04-28T22:19:00.001+08:00

Everthing that hv a beginning will always come to an end. So do mine relationship. I'm thanking God for showing me the thruth and HE has lead me to the right way after endless of praying seeking HIS help. Syukur Alhamdulillah.. The truth may be hurt, but rather be hurt now than later. Life have to move on no matter what...

Never say "I love you"

If you really don't care

Never talk about feelings

If they aren't there

Never hold my hand

If you gonna break my heart

Never say you going to...

If you don't plan to start

Never look into my eyes

If all you do is lie..

Never say hi

If you really mean goodbye

If you really mean forever then say you will try

Never say forever coz forever makes me cry...

HEY YOU!!

2009-04-27T21:35:00.000+08:00

HEY!!! YOU THINK BY BAD MOUTHING ME TO MY GUY MADE ME FEEL SCARE HUH??!!! CAN'T BELIEVE THT U STOOP YOURSELF SO LOW LIKE THT JUST BECAUSE HE'S MIA. U CAN'T REACH HIM, SO YOU THINK I STILL CONTACTING HIM!!! WHAT THE FUCK YOU MORON!!!

Clueless..

2009-04-15T21:22:00.001+08:00

I'm sick and tired of everything that's happening now. Y can't you just be honest and tell me the truth and admit ur mistake?? Is this life supposed to be??

There's always reason(s) why I've been quiet and MIA for a time being from being with u. But u simply did not seems to think deeper enough what the reasons behind all that. Yet u blamed me over and over again. And at the same time u took this opportunity to blame me and made me helpless over and over again with what u had done. U simply blamed me for every thing.

I'm too tired to explain to u over and over again why I did all this. Even when I did, u will still blamed me and said u do all these because of what I did. Yet u don't seems to notice that the problems lies on u.

If u claimed that u want to change for the better, make sure u do, NO MATTER WHAT. But u gave excuses saying that I'm the cause that made u won't change for the better. If u wanna change for the better, u do it for yourself, not for others. Your life, u rule it. NOT OTHERS!

I'm really exhausted, really am. And I'm helpless too. I wanna end all this for the good of us and people around us especially your family. Maybe both of us did not really put enough effort to make this relationship work. Instead both of us keeps on blaming each other.

Here I am typing all this for u to read and thinking about what had happened. I'm not the type who will blow up every single bad things that u had done towards me in this cyber world. I did not want to tarnish ur dignity and pride cause I also have dignity and pride too and I know how it feels like if someone tarnish mine in the cyber world. If I really wanna say it out, I make sure I tell people that I really trust and that people won't spread the news to anyone. It's just between me and that person...

Will Never..

2009-02-12T00:08:00.000+08:00

You will never understand..never will coz you aren't in my shoe :|

Arghhh!!

2009-01-27T01:36:00.004+08:00

So pissed off again la. Now with BoyFie...arghhhhhhh...feel like punching him sia!! Every now and then wanna make me angry sia..Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! F***!!

Pissed!!

2009-01-23T00:01:00.003+08:00

I'm very pissed off and angry with my younger brother..Came back home so late. Worst still got love bite all around his neck!!! Not small2 one okies!!! It was SO obvious la!! From far, can see already... Ishk...what am I supposed to say to him sia?? Nak marah? Nk marah pon, tak guna, die bukan nyer budak kecik kan?? Tomorrow if mum get to see this, confirm she will yell at me not him ok coz I don't take care my bro until he went astray like that lor..haiyahhhhhh...

Well, project madness gonna soon end ar..One more project submission to go...and gonna be stress again for the upcoming presentation and exam lor...Crazy, want to graduate also make our life difficult!!

New year 2009

2009-01-03T00:08:00.003+08:00

Hurhur...Hello 2009, good bye 2008!!! Many things had happened during that particular year..the bad, the sweet moments...everything!!! But Alhamdulillah, managed to overcome those obstacles...

Few more months to go before graduation...WoOhHoOoO...Yesh ar, I can now smell the fragrance of graduation..Hehehe....

New year, a brand new chapter will begin....hopefully everything will be going smoothly..Insyallah...

Ok la, will stop here...BoyFie dh sound asik bz je dgn lappy...hehhee...

*Toddles*

22th Monthsaries

2008-12-18T00:53:00.005+08:00

Been down with flu and fever for the past few days but that does not deterred me from baking brownies yesterday for my love. This is to celebrate our 22th monthsaries of being together. Still counting down to our 2yrs anniversary of courtship. Hehe..Insyallah

Went to starbuck Tampines to indulge our all tyme favourite Java chip Frappuccino, oreo cheese cake and chocolate amer. Yum yum..while having a nice chat with dearie, received a text message from Miza & Azhar asking where are we. Less than 1 minute after replying their message, they suddenly pop out from our back. LOL.

Sat down and chilled together with the couple till 11pm and we all went back to my hommie to watch Sundal Bolong 3. Hehe..

Alhamdulillah...

2008-12-03T23:22:00.003+08:00

Attachment has just ended, so do our marriage preparatory program @ Al-Ansar Mosque. Congrats to Syabanun & Hairul Sham on their engagement ceremony on 29 November 2008. Sorry ya lambat dtg, faham2 je la eh..kekeke...

Till now I'm feeling shacked. Soooooooooo shacked...lepas je abis attachment, skolah lak. Aiyah....penat dong!!!!

Thanx Boo

2008-11-16T23:42:00.004+08:00

Thanx boo for the mini surprised that u gave me. Kinda shocked to receive an orange rose and a set of necklace from him.
Yeah, must be wondering right why out of sudden he gave me those things..hehehe....today, it's our 1 yr 9 mths old of courtship..
Once again, thanx boo. Appreciate it muchie =)

Oh, mak buyong has given birth to a cute lil' baby girl. This infant really look like her lor. Like mother like daughter. Hehe.. Get this pic from Hooi San.

Was born on 15th November 08'

"Hati ni tak sampai hati"

2008-11-14T23:45:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was the last day for mak buyong @ DP Seiyu. Heard from kak Lynn, she cried after came back from her follow up check up. Haiyah..dah kenapa ni buying nangis eh? Asked Liza just now, got to know buyong kinda stress and has high blood pressure. Poor her..

Yesterday she bid farewell to us, tears started to roll down her cheek. She hugged me also ar. Seeing her in that kind of state, I also started to cry. Like kak lynn said, "hati ni tak sampai hati". But she herself is so self-centered lor.

Anyway since Liza took over her, so far ok la. But like kak lynn said, it's still too early to judge lor.

Ok ok, need to have my sleep. Tommorrow work morning shift.

*Toodles*

Counting Down

2008-11-12T22:16:00.006+08:00

Time flies so fast and another 16 more days I will end my attachment. Weee... But I'm gonna miss them especially my one and only kak lynn...and for sure not my manager.Hehehe... I love my kak lynn so much until I went to the extend of treating her like my own blood sister.

*SOB SOB*

She's so nice towards me. I still wanna keep in touch with her even right after my attachment end =)

Went to Al-Ansar Mosque to register for our marriage prepatory course this coming 29th and 30th november. And it has been confirmed. We also have discussed the suitable date for our marriage together with mum. Confirmation is yet to be discuss with his side =)

Before heading up to BoyFie's hommie, I decided to go for a quick shopping for my lil' future niece (Nur Alisya) daughter of Juliana..Hehe..BoyFie's sister-in law first new born baby. She's so adorable and look just like her mum. And furthermore it's Julie's birthday yesterday. So went to grab a small gift for her @ Charles & Keith. I must said, I really koyak seh for the month of October & November. Most of his family birthday are from that month. Gosh!! tomorrow have another November Baby!! It's Boboy's birthday. Have not yet buy present for him... *FAINT*

otw to Al-Ansar Mosque